Imagine if we could control our thoughts
On first glance, this seems a nearly impossible task.
Control our thoughts?
Instead of the other way around?
But imagine if we could?
This is not about repression or denial.
Repression and denial set up elaborate games to pretend that negative thoughts and feelings are not occurring. Instead admitting to the existence of negative thoughts, understanding where they come from and why they arrived, and then – with great forgiveness and fortitude, dismissing them.
Of course this all takes practice and effort. It’s not a teaching that you can hear once and then expect to master immediately.
It’s constant vigilance and I want to do it!
I need to do it, for my strength and for my damn sanity!
No, I am not mad.
I know I am not – I have a clean bill of health as the doctors say (well maybe not now in this precise moment, as I have had the flu for the last two days, but you get my drift).
But the more I delve into the unknown and travel down a path less travelled by others, negative thoughts sometimes overpower me. This is normal, right?
So I’ve started being vigilant about watching my thoughts all day and monitoring them.
I repeat this vow about 700 times a day (no exaggeration): ‘I will not harbour unhealthy thoughts anymore”
Every time a diminishing thought arises, I repeat the vow. I will not harbor unhealthy thoughts anymore.
The first time I heard myself say this, my inner ear perked up at the word “harbour”, which is a noun as well as a verb. A harbor, of course is a place of refuge, a port of entry.
I pictured the harbour of my mind – a little beat-up, perhaps a little storm-worn, but well situated and with a nice depth. The harbour of my mind is an open bay, the only access to the island of my self (which is a young and volcanic island, yes, but futile and promising). This island has been through some wars, it is true, but it is now committed to peace, under a new leader (me) who has instituted new polices to protect the place. And now – let the word go out across the seven seas – there are much, much stricter laws on the books about who may enter this harbor.
You may not come here anymore with your hard and abusive thoughts, with your plague ships of thoughts, with your slave ships of thoughts, with your worships of thoughts, all these will be turned away.
Likewise, any thoughts that are fluid with anger, doubt, hate, fear – you may not come here anymore, either.
Cannibalistic thoughts, for obvious reasons, will no longer be received. Even missionaries will be screened carefully for sincerity. This is a peaceful harbour, the entry way to a fine and proud island tat is only now beginning to cultivate tranquility – if you can abide by these new laws, my dear thoughts, then you are welcome in my mind – otherwise, I shall turn you all back toward the sea from whence you came.
That is my mission and it will never end!!
This may not work for you but it has to work for me, I have tried everything else.
So here’s to undertaking this mission with me, if you dare to come along?
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