And no, this isn’t about Beyonce, although she did influence the title of this post and I do love her, like who doesn’t????
But I am talking about ME!
I think about the woman I have become lately, about the life that I am now living, and about how much I always wanted to be this person and live this life, liberated from the farce of pretending to be anyone other than myself.
I think of everything I endured before getting here and wonder if it was me – I mean, this happy and balanced me, who is now out in the world writing and crafting my desired life – who pulled the other, younger, more confused and more struggling me forward during all those hard years.
The younger me was the acorn full of potential, but it was the older me, the already-existent oak, who was saying the whole time: “Yes – grow! Change! Evolve!
Come and meet me here, where I already exist in wholeness and maturity! I need you to grow into me!”
And maybe it was this present and fully actualised me who was hovering five years ago over that young naïve enthusiastic graduate starting her career, and maybe it was this me who whispered lovingly into that desperate girl’s ear, “Just stay in this job, another year, Linda.” Knowing already that everything would be OK, that everything would eventually bring us together here. Right here, right to this moment. Where I was always waiting in peace and contentment, always waiting for her to arrive and join me.
But who really knows.
All I know is that I think I am liking the woman I am becoming!
Happy International Women’s Day (for yesterday)
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