….One wants to have all the joy, passion and adventure that life can give me.
The other wants to be a slave to routine, to family life, to the things that can be planned and achieved.
Both of us living in the same body and in battle with each other.
I want to be someone who is different, but I also want to be the same as everyone else. And that in my view is a serious illness.
It takes a lot for me to say this but I feel I have to. I need to be ME.
Sometimes it takes you a long time to sound like yourself.
The more I find myself however, the more people I lose, but I shouldn’t have to rip myself into pieces to keep others whole.
Life is too short, or too long, for me to allow myself the luxury of living it so badly so today I choose to be ME.
People will say that I have changed but to be honest, people who are comfortable with remaining stagnant will always say “you’ve changed”. The cycle of life is supposed to include growth and transformation. Don’t allow those who are stuck in a bud to make you feel less for blooming.
I choose MYSELF.
You choose yourself one choice at a time. You choose yourself every day. You choose yourself with all of your fears and hopes mixed together and nobody knows what’s going to happen.
But if you do it with a sense of mission, a belief in your vision, what happens may not be what you expect, but you will never say, “I wonder what would have happened?”
I know that choosing yourself has a high price, maybe even as high as that of slavery; the only difference is that you pay with pleasure and a smile, even when that smile is dimmed by tears.
Be happy. x