I grew tired of being someone I was not.
I grew tired of trying to convince myself that there weren’t parts of me filled with sadness and anger.
I grew tired of ignoring myself and underappreciating my raw emotions.
I grew tired of trying to hide all the tombstones in my eyes.
I allowed outdated teachings that didn’t resonate with my depths to convince me that in order to lead a truly prosperous life I would have to hide all my wounds. That I would have to live like my parents and peers.
I grew so tired that I almost lost myself for good.
But slowly, I found that loving my demons as much as I loved my angels gave me strength and power. The strength and power to know who I wanted to become.
And when your soul is awakening to this truth, you’ll go through a shift. So many changes will occur in your life.
You will begin thinking of yourself in that way.
You will begin describing yourself (if only in the privacy of your own mind) in those ways.
Your beliefs about yourself will evolve as you change your inner dialogue. After your beliefs change, your behaviour will change automatically.
You will begin seeing yourself as someone who evolves throughout life, ever growing and learning.
You will begin to think about who you want to be—not in relation to your peers—but what energises and excites you.
After you’ve been shifted internally and changed as a person, the results in your life will be much different.
And once you know who you want to become (and this is not chiselled in granite, you can change it and do expect it to evolve over time) things are so much simpler.
I guess what I am trying to say very simply but somehow I have managed to find a long winded way of doing so (forgive me its gone midnight while I type this), is that we must be willing to let go of the life we planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us. There is no point in worrying about how you’ll become who you want to be—just think about who you want to be in a world where you can become whoever you want to be. We no longer have to stick to the norms – get good grades, get a PhD, get a great job, blah blah blah.
Because life has evolved beyond this and when most people reach their goal this way, they stop trying. They’ve reached the society-predetermined definition of success and then don’t do much afterwards. I mean how many doctors do you know that have changed the face of medicine? I mean personally……..
I’ll give you time to let that sink in this Monday morning!
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