I almost didn’t write this.
All sorts of seemingly valid
bullshit reasons why I shouldn’t pervaded my mind;
“You don’t really know what you’re saying.”
“Who are you to write about this when you haven’t gotten your shit completely together?”
And so on and so forth, then I just stopped and thought to myself, fuck it!
Now it might be a mistake for me to put this much of myself—all my emotions—out in the open, naked and exposed like my last post; objects at which the public can point and sneer, but I really do hate doing things by halves.
August 24, 2015, was my first ‘real’ day of freedom, the first day of my real life, my new life! It was liberating and exciting but it was also terrifying because by the end of day 1, I realised that the life I had been living had been total bullshit. For the longest time my life was unremarkable at best, miserable at worst: too long I went with the flow. I worked so much that the rest of my life suffered. There’s nothing wrong with hard work, as long as it doesn’t get in the way of life’s more important areas: health, relationships, passion, but for me it did get in the way of all three of these things! I treated my job like my mission. The people who envied my life didn’t see the other side, they didn’t see the life behind the curtain. I did a good job of masking my fear, my anxiety, my stress, my loneliness, my guilt, my worry. I displayed a impressive facade, revealing only what I thought the world wanted me to reveal. Worst of all, my life was void of any real meaning, and it felt as if I was flying in ever-diminishing circles. August 24, 2015 is when this feeling STOPPED…..my job was no longer my mission!
This year I will focus on my passion (primarily writing) and on my mission (growth and contribution). I will publish content on my site that helps people change their lives (my passion and mission). I will spend a lot more time contributing to others through mentoring (my mission). And I will help you if you need my help.
I’m not saying that it was easy making this change, but for me it’s so much better than the alternative. It’s so much better than walking with the living dead!
At the end of the day everyone wants a life they can be proud of, well at least i think that’s what everybody want. If that’s the case, this is not a single decision, but a myriad of little decisions each day regarding money, health, passion and contribution. With the passing of each day these decisions add up, until one day you realise you’ve created an extraordinary life! If this seems insurmountable initially, that’s because you’re looking too far ahead—only worry about making today extraordinary. What tiny decisions will you make today—not tomorrow, not next week, not next year, but today—that will sculpt your mission!