Each day I wake up and I hope I’ll have the guts to write a blog post. Writing with guts means not just being right, but showing fear. It’s being vulnerable in front of the reader by wholly committing to something and letting everyone see you try to get it. If you have guts, you are letting people see you fail – big. They might see that. Because what we have to lose, ultimately, is our idea of ourselves that we are good at what we are risking. We might have to reframe our idea of ourself. And losing our identity takes a lot of guts.
I don’t want to be here again. I am too scared. But I am here. There is going to come a time, when I’m doing this blog, where I will have to tell you how great it is. Right now, I don’t have to do that. I can tell you that behind every great anything is a person who is scared.
Every time I see my ‘babi’ perform on stage, I think about the bravery he performs with and I want that to be me. I want to open my heart and show you the best that I can do with this blog, with my life, and not be fearful that I’ll fail. No great spoken word pieces came from fear, and that’s true of careers as well.
I don’t know if this means I have the guts or I don’t have the guts for this new career path. But I know that everything I’ve ever done that I’m proud of in my life, was something that took a lot of guts. There was no rational reason to think it would work out well, and I did it anyway.