I turned 30 this month and with a new decade comes new wisdom.
I am constantly learning that everyone is not like me. everyone doesn’t move through the world like I do. Everyone doesn’t care like I do. Everyone won’t show up for me like I do for them—more times than not, they don’t know/see/understand how. Or, maybe, they’re too wrapped up in their lives to lean into mine. Sometimes understanding that truth stings. As someone who is a giver, it’s interesting for me to learn (time and time again) that reciprocity isn’t always offered—even if I think it should be.
The lesson: if I am giving, pouring, loving, showing up, lending, etc. I must also accept that I may not get it back. I’m navigating those waters daily. I am learning to be OK with what I am given AND what I am not. There are times in life where we have to extend ourselves and not get anything back in return. Sometimes we have to let others need us, despite us needing someone, too.
While exploring this world of give and take, I am shifting. I am learning. I am setting boundaries. I am stepping back. I am pouring into me now. because, in reality, if I don’t who will?
Motherhood isn’t linear. There are so many peaks and valleys that are explored. With a newborn baby my time is stretched thin and sometimes days are tough, and NO WORK gets done. I am constantly learning and relearning all the newness that comes with having a baby.
And that is ok.