I am not the girl who is always smiling.
There are days I carry my frown like a trophy.
I let the world know that – today my heart is breaking.
I choose to occupy my time with things that will enable my souls expansion, not things which will enable false attention.
I do not always overflow with positivity, I get angry, I get upset, I curse and sometimes I wish I was never born.
I do not play the role of false light, and yes I am proud of myself for not falling into that trap.
I embrace my ego and the great lessons it has taught me.
I do not demonise who I am naturally, an element of darkness as much as an element of light.
I do not believe in mistakes – only lessons.
I do not believe in problems – only challenges.
I am not perfect, I never want to be perfect.
I want something much bolder, much greater, much more shocking, much more terrifying than that.
We tend to form an image of what perfection is in order to try to be good enough.
We create an image of how we should be in order to be accepted by everybody.
We especially try to please the ones who love us.
Trying to be good enough for them, we create an image of perfection, but we don’t fit this image.
We create this image, but this image is not real. We are never going to be perfect from this point of view. Never!
I for one believe that imperfection goes above and beyond perfection. There is nothing to learn from perfection, there is no expansion. With imperfection there is infinite expansion. So in a sense perfection is flawed.
I want to be the bolt which strikes every idea of perfection that has been shoved down the throat of every woman, and a reminder that there is something much more wild, much more liberating much more exciting, and much more tantalising outside the barriers of perfection – it is a beautiful mess, it is a chaotic playground of desire and pleasure, it is a golden ocean full of broken things with magnificent stories, it is the dark void of mystery and absolute rebellion.
A big goal.
But a goal nonetheless.
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